Not So Resolute?

It was the second week of January and I've already ruined my New Year Resolution. Yep. I couldn't even last 2 weeks. Oh well. No seriously, no big deal. Here's the thing: when we put a goal out there to meet and don't have any real plan to meet it, this is what happens. Disappointed? Well, maybe a little. I think back to March 14 of 2023. I hadn't stepped into a gym for almost 8 years and I couldn't believe I was doing it then. I simply had gotten fed up. That's a southern term that means I had more than enough of something or someone, or to be bored with or tired of the same. When I started, I was SOOO weak. I left feeling defeated and frustrated. Then, I awakened and told myself I wasn't a quitter. I coaxed myself into my workout gear, tied my shoes and out the door I went. I didn't struggle as much, but suddenly, about halfway through my workout, I felt energized and kinda stoked. Realizing this is what consistency felt like, I was determined to keep going. Well, a year later, I was still going at it 5 days a week. I was so much stronger, but I didn't feel like I looked all that different from a year before. That's where I was wrong. I mentioned this to a couple of my closest friends, and they gave resounding confirmation - you look very different than you did last year. The things they said weren't about my waistline or my ability to arm-wrestle a champion. The most common phrase was that I "held my head higher, held my shoulders straighter and spoke with more conviction about myself." Their confirmations that I appeared differently than the year before was something I had discounted as not as important as the definition in my muscles, but the structure of my conviction to be disciplined, even when the mirror didn't tell me. So, I'm leaning in. Changing some things and learning like drinking from a fire hose.

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